Wednesday, May 13, 2009

moment for hesitation

I don't know what lies ahead and I'm not certain this is the direction to success. It's either this or go back from where I came. Even If i don't end at success I will have visited progress.

Monday, May 11, 2009

owww ms. Fiona

She says "when im all alone i can make me say yea yea yea"

I absolutely love how sexy this woman is. A video about a woman wanting to be pleased, sexually...with not one explicit scene, or showcase of ass or booby.


im waiting for more tho (no homo)

Money Sex Love

Good Book. Its a compilation of different female authors and their take on love and money. Its stories from single mothers to lawyers wives to the "other woman". Really dope because its all the things we really think about and may never talk about, although we should. Funny how cash rules everything around us and its difficult to talk about with your partner or partners ...;) well for me anyway...(if i love him) lol

and by chance if we do discuss the financial situation of either party a woman could easily be deemed a "gold digger"

*bull shit*

For me anyway. When it gets to the point of spending the rest of your lives together I think everything should be put on the table. I'm not really looking to be completed but i am definitely expecting to be complimented.

(note to reader)
this is only for relationship status ...not dating. I dont care what you have at that point if the gift you just gave me or the date we just left broke you i would rather not know.

I am an addict

Grandee Caramel frappuccino
380 calories

Nothing good about this habit. this is the last one i will consume, , , today. ;)

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Imitation of black

I am a product of only God knows what. I use my imagination, inquiring minds should too. Truth is, I am adopted. I have never met nor seen a picture of the woman who gave birth to me. Supposedly she was young and white and got knocked up by a black guy (aka daddy) So im mixed with black and white ? yea...duh, i guess.

However; im questioned almost everyday "where im from" or am I Indian? I really dont know. But the thing is i was raised in a ALL BLACK family. Southern black family people are often puzzled by a Indian lady speaking country grammar ao fluently. Enviorment over genetics in my case.

I would be lying if I said I wasnt proud of who i am, biracial. I like that i look different but to my knowledge im black. My father was so im automatically black right? But why is it so hard for black people to grasp this. If i was the mixed chick who always denied the black bloods dominance , i would be judged as disowning my blackness. Honestly I have to admit I hate when someone is mixed with black and acts like they are not black. On the other hand I hate it more when I announce my "blackness proudly" and Im given the blank stare. As if im trying to be something im not. I dont get this from other races just my own.
Why tho ? catch 22


Death is hard to digest, although its simple.

Nothing complicated about being gone forever..

The end.
No breath
No life.


they say it takes time...

so i deal with it every minute.